NASHVILLE, Tenn. - Lindsey Lowe was convicted of murdering her newborn twins. Now she wants another chance to make her case and has asked for a new trial.
In a Newschannel 5 exclusive the father of those children, Jeremy Smith, is speaking out for the first time about his struggle to understand the loss of his two infants.
"This should never have taken place. She had choices. She had options," said Smith.
Smith said that Lindsey Lowe did not need to commit a double murder. She did not have to kill her twin infant boys.
"I still have no reasoning on why she done it or how she can do something like this," said Smith.
On September 14, 2011 Hendersonville police were called to Lowe's home to investigate an unspeakable crime.
"After I pulled the bloody towel back, I saw a deceased newborn," said the investigating officer.
Prosecutors said Lowe's mother found the bodies of her grandsons hidden in a laundry basket in her daughter's bedroom.
In a confession Lowe revealed she had twins, but they were both secretly born in the toilet before she killed them.
"I don't see how you can give birth. Kill them and put them in a laundry basket and let them stay there for three days and you sleep beside them," said Smith.
Lowe's attorney argued in court that his client suffered from blood loss and deep emotional issues.
Somehow her pregnancy remained a secret from everyone. Smith said he never knew about it.
Now four years later he's finally talking about the moment he learned the horrible truth of what happened.
Smith, who lives in Kentucky, said Lowe cut off contact with him after their brief affair. But then months later a Hendersonville detective called him out of the blue.
"He says, 'Do you know Lindsey Lowe?' I said yeah. He said, 'Did you know she was pregnant?' No. And I'm like how are the baby? He said babies plural and he says they are dead," said Smith.
At first Smith didn't believe it.
Lowe had a fiance but DNA testing confirmed Smith fathered the twins.
"I would have gladly come down there and picked those babies up and given them a life," said Smith.
"I'm a twin. They were twins. You imagine the bond I would have had with those little boys."
Of course, Smith never got the chance.
But, as you might expect he said not a day goes by where he doesn't think about what might have been if Lowe had only chosen another option.
"What really gets me is Tennessee is a "Safe Haven" state," said Smith.
He knows Lowe could have quietly given up the children no questions asked and they'd be with him today.
"It's an everyday nightmare. I wake up with it and I go to bed with it," said Smith.
After a seven-day trial a jury convicted Lowe of murder sentencing her to life in prison.
Can Smith ever forgive Lowe?
"No, never.She's paying the price, but ultimately I'm paying the bigger price because I don't have those twin babies in my life," said Smith.
To this day questions remain about Lowe's whirlwind romance with Smith and how or why her pregnancy remained a secret.